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Happy Saturday to all of the people out there. It's not gonna be a happy one for me since prelims starts in two days. I'm not confident in passing them. Last minute notes, last minute revision, what can I expect from it? Uh whatever, I'll try to study as much as I can. Gonna start today. I don't care whether it's gonna be in the afternoon or at night, whenever, as long as I get something in to my head.

Baby asked me to tag along with him to his friend's birthday BBQ pit at Pasir Ris. I wanna go, i wanna meeeeeet him, but after thinking twice, I don't think so? I'd be wasting my time asking Mum cause obviously her answer will be NO. If I were to just sneak out of the house, I'd be in deep shit again. Sorry baby, have fun alright. Miss you, ass.

Ok, another weekend wasted. Wait, how many weekends have I wasted, rotting at home? Hahahahahaha countless. Maybe not but whatever it feels like sooooooooo long. It's almost three and I've not showered. Perangai well done!!!! Mcm nak tido pon ade :)

hold on, allysa

“‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you, just as you do not expect it from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. ‘I love you’ means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping that you feel the same way for me.”



So I cried like a mad bitch today. Fought with whom I call my boyfriend, again. I don't know how many times we've had an argument for the past week. I don't know where the problem lies and i don't know if we are fighting because of big issues. I know you're jealous and it seemed to be a good thing to know at first. But now? I don't know... Maybe a little too paranoid. A little too jealous? Come on, what can I do if those guys add me on Facebook? And it's not as if I am FLIRTING with them, damn it. It just hurts me so fucking much when you talked to me with those harsh words. Who am I? And now you're telling me you are having doubts about me loving you. Bullshit, I say. You said I can entertain those people for all I want. You're saying it like as if I don't fucking entertain you. Uh? I got so pissed. Everything you've said today really tells how much you trust me. "Only god knows how you really feel." Wow, just wow ok? This is pointless.

Simply said, I'm so fucking hurt. Whatever. Shows how much I love you, sucker. :(

You can actually go to sleep huh. While I, on the other hand, can't go to sleep when we are not even on good talking terms.

Okay wtf, I guess this post seems really.... emotional. May be the first post of all posts. Hah okay nite. I really do love you, Nazif. (as if he's reading this -.-)

Hey. Weekends might as well don't exist. They pass by real fast. Fuckin' fast. I haven't been good these days. Bitchfits and mood swings with boyfriend, friends bla bla bla. I'm so sorry. I guess my period's on its way. But you know, fuck it. Sometimes I can't help it. Maybe I think too much or whatever it is. Insecurites are eating me up. Ughhhhhhhh.

I'm still thinking if I'm ready for a... relationship. I love him so much but then.. there are still issues. Maybe the problem lies with me. Oh fml~

Oh anyways, went to watch Inception with baby yesterday. Actually we were stucked on whether we should watch Eclipse or Inception. We kept arguing bout it. So he told me he felt like watching inception so I told him, we'll go ahead with it. The outcome: I tried to fight my sleepyness -.- Almost fell asleep. Lied to baby HAH. He regrets watching it too :P

School again tomorrow :( I think I have to start going for night classes again.

weee

SYG KORANG AH BABI :)



I'm so sleepy. School has been really tiring.... Today's the 16th. HAPPY 1ST MONTHSARY, BABY ♥ Love you.

K dah bye. HAHAHAHAHA!

Oh, prelims are coming. SO EXCITED.

hey ho

It's me updating my blog. Yo yo what's up? Hahahahahaha. Fuck, I've been such a lazy ass! But not really. I've been so busy with school and night studies for the past week. It's like I have no life. What to do right? Prelims are just around the corner. Suffer now. Enjoy later *winks*

Met Baby yesterday. And Friday. It's becoming a routine to meet him on these 2 days every week. But next week is a must. (I HOPE) Heh heh. 5 more days to our first month. Which is on a Friday. Coincidental much? Love you so much, horny fucker :P

Ok... So today was the first day of my religious class. It sucked. I think I'm the oldest there. Plus, I didn't even talk to any of them -.- HAHA anti social much.

Back to school tomorrow! Zzzzzzz. I wanna watch tonight's match! SPAIN IS GONNA WIN!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXO.