unbelievable

Shows that entertained me today:
Kourtney & Khloe Take Miami > Running In Heels > 16 and Pregnant > Pranked

Haha, that's funny, no, I mean the second picture. I'm not in the right state of mind to blog about anything right now.. One more hour to midnight. Everyday it's like the same old routine going on and on non stop. Getting sick of this already! _|_ I can't deny that I miss school. Okay maybe not exactly "school" school but my classmates. HAHA. Can't deny can't deny.

I need to hang out with some particular people. Especially with Raf and Ada! HAHA miss you guiseeeeeeeeeee.

I'm weird 'cos right now I'm craving for plain water. Bye. I freaking want Nokia's latest phone please please please?

holidays = fucked

My fringe isn't supposed to look like bangs but it always does anyway. It's almost midnight now and I don't know what to do. So far, I've done nothing constructive at all besides being on the computer, online for countless hours. I've sort of given up on doing my art. Supposed to download the illustrator from the internet but it failed even after many times trying. That surely dissapointed the shit out of me, HAHA not really. I was looking looking forward to designing my logos and that thing not being able to be downloaded, sucks. Of course I'll do it in time to come. Last minute stuffs if my forte. Ha.

I can't really go out. Mum always suspects that when I go out, I will smoke or do stupid stuffs. And if for example I say that I'm gonna go out with (inserts name), she won't believe it either. Nothing else works. Sucks so hard. FUCK THIS OKAY. Whats the fucking point for holidays? I believe being in school is so much better...
Oh yea, I lost the booklist -.-

HAHAHAHAA btw, I had such a weird dream last night. Fucking weird! I can't imagine.

whatever you like

So this is how the colour turned out to be. I sort of panicked when I first got out of the shower. It's like the colour is too obvious but after awhile I got used to it.. Haha shit. I still find it too yellow or whatever the colour is. I don't know what the fuck's gonna happen tomorrow.. Thinking of buying black hairspray but ughh idk =/

My neck is still in so much pain ever since I woke up in the morning. I must have slept at the wrong side of the bed or wtv shit. I can't turn or tilt it or it'll hurt like hell. Okay what else? HAHAHHAA OH YEAH. Mum wants to put on hair extensions. I'm still in shock. I mean, i still can't believe it. She's willing to go the extent to put on extensions. Well, good for her... As for me, i've no idea. So, accompanying Mum to far east plaza later.

cut snap cut snap

So does it look different or something? My fringe is so "not short". If you get what I mean. I think this actually makes me look more like a chinese now. I've already had enough people thinking that I am one but this made it worse. HA HA HA, okay anyways get over it allysa. I bought a platinum gold hair dye HAHAHAHA fuck I'm gonna try it in awhile. If i don't like it, i'm gonna get another one okay goodnight. I just found out that hari raya haji's on this coming Thursday. Wah wah I wonder what my relatives are gonna say about my hair -.- Ughhh they are religious people so yea..



P/S: Mum's really hating her concaved hair. She keeps complaining and whining and complaning about it. She even called my father to tell him all about it. HAHAHAHA how cute.

smoke

Smoke = hot. Nothing else.
So let me present you my latest discoveries of models. Francisco Lachowski, Jeremy Young & Robbie Wadge.
Hmm, okay so I know the first one has a name to kill for. I don't even know if I pronounced it properly. He's a Brazilian okay! So cool. And so hot....







This picture is the bomb. No wait, it's the boomz. Omg haahahahaa.


First 3 pictures are Francisco.



This is.. Jeremy Young.



And urm this is... Robbie Wadge.

Sorry for the pictures update. Hahaha, my mind's blank. I was supposed to start on my research but got so caught up on other things. I'm most probably getting my fringe cut later on. But I don't know in what way... Die die die. Wow anyways, does anyone notice that I've been updating almost everyday now? Get a lifeeeeee. HAHA FUCK I WANT MONEY.

2308)I haven't liked any guys for a year now but i'm not a lesbian. is this normal?

-taken from SG Secret.

So ha, is it normal? Or am I really a....? HAHAHAAHAA!!!

cleared up my books

Last night I decided to clear up whatever unused worksheets and books... Let's start with pictures...

This is only the beginning...



Then I found the 'hot list' that I made with Ada...



And then it got even lamer...



That I can't believe I wrote such stupid stuffs.. (HA, my handwriting just sucks)

Then it gets worse....



TOTAL MAJOR FAILURE!!!! HAHAHAHA

And say goodbye to 2009 timetable... (thats when I found out I fucking lost my book list for next year _|_)



Okay hahaha so I am sorry if I have bored you to death reading this. I simply have no idea what else to update on. Hmm, besides the fact that I'm craving for donuts donuts donuts!!!! Am still thinking whether I should head to ION later on just to get some of those. But considering that I'm such a lazy bum, I highly have doubts -.-And I'm most probably gonna dye my hair tomorrow. Wondering if it'd turn out to be disastrous.

i don't get it

Hey. Today sucked alot. I'm rotting at home yet again on a freaking Saturday. Mum has been a really angry person lately and of couse it's affecting me. I mean come on, it's already the holidays and I'm not allowed to go out? She's accusing me of lying and that's the reason why. Guess what I did? I went to watch a movie last Friday when I told her I went out to do my art research. I don't consider that as a lie, is it? I was done with my research and whatnots before catching a movie. And on top of that, it's not as if I went out with my 'outside' friends. I went with Raf. She didn't buy that. Well thats her problem if she didn't trust me but I didn't lie for goodness sake. I even went home by my curfew time. Ok so it's obvious she's still hanging on that incident. Which in this case, I didn't even lie -.- And now she's going mad over little things. But it's okayyyyyyyyy I guess I can bear with it.

Enough whining already. Hahahahah.

So I changed my blogskin again. Loving it (you probably know the reason why). Finally, holidays!!! No more going back to school for Art. But still, there's a hell load of things to be done before school reopens. Most of it involves the computer since I chose graphic design. Maybe I'll start on it next week. I decided not to look for a job anymore since I doubt I'll have the time do work on my art. But, I'll still most probably work at this somewhere. I wanna go Sentosa. You know, a feeling. Plus I had a weird and sick dream last night. Too weird to be true.

I gotta off the computer before my mum comes home. Bye for now.

no idea

smoking hot. hot hot hot!
A very short post. Been procrastinating since like many hours ago to do my observational drawings. I think I'm kinda screwed. Ha, so much for saying that it's not gonna be that hard and for being so darn happy. I've to head out to get brochures from at least 10 jewellery stores and to the library for MORE research by Thursday. Not forgetting the 15 logos and drawings. All this shit by the 19th. Or is it 20th? Either way, I still don't think I'm gonna make it. Going out tomorrow to get it done. And, hopefully, a movie. Work postponed to Thursday but I don't know =/

Mum's not coming back tonight. She's got stocktake to do at work and will only be back tomorrow morning. Freedom for the whole night to be online. But seriously I don't think so, I got to start drawing. I hope I can wake up tomorrow morning! Zzzz. Currently watching Boiling Points. HAHAHAHAHA fucking hilarious!

(is this post considered short? HAHAHHA) Goodnight. I just missed a chance to get tickets for tomorrow's singapore idol live. Ughhh should've asked earlier! -.-

hell

Went to school for art today. It ended at 1, which is 3 hours earlier than the actual time. I swear that was what I needed at that point of time because I felt fucking restless, doing nothing except staring at the blank space or laugh and laugh like there's no tomorrow. And thats like only 4 hours. The worse has yet to come. 7 hours of art (minus 1 hour of recess) is like woaaaaaaaaah. Hahahah, so much for wanting to drop art huh. I don't have enough guts to do that. Anyways, I'm so bloody happy and feel more carefree now. I'm so glad I chose graphic design as my artform as it is less of a hassle. I only have to complete 3-5 PROPER observational drawings. FUCKING AMAZING RIGHT. So I'm left with ongoing research and such. Oh, plus 15 logos. It can't be that hard, right?

Okay so now my ass is aching. Been infront of the computer for a few hours already. Mum's out at town. And then.. my uncle from Philippines is staying here for the night. Like wtf la, I'm not even THAT close to him. Ok scratch that, I'm not even this close to him. I just don't like it... I hate striking conversations with any of relatives, i swear. It gets annoying. And it's so awkward plus uncomfortable. You never know what kinda questions they will ask. Just screw this. I so need someone to follow me tomorrow for my art research. But I don't know who -.- 2012 AND PARANORMAL ACTIVITY :( HAHAHAHAHAHAAH SUCKS TO BE BROKE! But on the bright side, I'm gonna start working this Wednesday. I hope it'll last though. I desperately need money okay bye.

Oh yah, whats up with primary school kids nowadays? Thinking they're way matured than us issit? Fuck off lah. Ha ha, they thought I was gonna steal the book from the shop downstairs? Dare to shout at me, please do dare to stay where you are okay? Oh yah, you're still so young, where got bloody ballllls. Still have the guts to say, "Kau ingat kau besar sngt ke pe?" HAHAHAHAHA.

too cute

My baby niece. I can't imagine how I'd pinch her cheeks when I meet her. So chubby!!! Aww. Hehe.

Anyways, Happy 15th Birthday Nis!

give me the money!

Lazy to elaborate on today.
Met Wani <3
I just want the money money money.
Saw so many pretty stuffs today.
Probably gonna find a job during the holidays.
Or maybe perhaps I already found myself a job.
Fuck, give me the money! ^^ HAHAHAHA.

P/S: 2012 AND PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!!!!!!!!!!!

just say it

Had an arguement with Mum last night. It was kinda major. It's clear that she still doesn't trust me after like.. what 2 years? So I talked back becase I couldn't take it. Why must she bring up the past? I merely wanted to go out. But she just had to mention about smoking and all. I ensured that I haven't been doing it for so god damn long already but wth did she reply? "Don't let me catch you doing those stupid things. Must be your stupid friends again." So normally I don't talk back but really, why do you have to blame in on my friends, AGAIN? She said it like as though she's so right about it. It got on my nerves so much so I kept on saying that my friends are not even involved and that in the first place, I'm not even smoking anymore. I told her I wasn't happy that she still didn't trust me after 2 fishing years. Just say it if you still don't trust me ok Mum? There's no need to say "Don't do stupid things if you don't want me not to say anything!" Yes, sometimes it is this hard for me just to go hang out with friends. I'm sorry Mum, I had to. Maybe I should just send her a sms saying I'm sorry hahahahaha stupid me.

So now I don't know if I'm allowed to go out today. How?

digusted with myself

Okay this is funny. So which category do you fall into? HAHA.

Finally changed my blogskin and am really happy with it! There's touches of pink on it and I really like it. Okay, not weird. I just like pink. I bet someone is gonna say that there's not much difference in changing blogskins since it's pretty much looks the same and it's plain. But... I like :)

School was not that great. I like Maths lessons now and I don't know why. Maybe because Ms Tng is teaching the class. And it's in an aircon room, which is supposed to be an advantage. But it gets really damn cold. I don't really like it but I do like it sometimes. So had a test just now. Don't really know whats the point in doing it if we can bring it home. Most of us have yet to complete it so yeah. Physics was unexpectedly fun today. Had a game. Battle of the sexes! Girls won, hahahah. I was one of them who participated -.- Blur as hell. The guys only had to pick the litter in the class. What an easy task. Zzzz. Okay, so headed home straight after school since I had no one to have lunch with. One of the rarest days ever.

Oh I remembered something. While on the way back home, I overheard a group of primary school boys' conversation. They were talking about cartoon porn. Hahahahah shit, they're not even 12 for goodness sake.

I've got something inside that I have to let out. But I won't (I THINK FOR THE TIME BEING). Oh fuck, i don't know why. Only Ada knows. HAHAHA. This feeling is eating me up. It concerns the matters of the heart HAHAHA if you know la.

Okay Mum's home. HAHA. Shit, I think I gtg. I bet for sure she's gonna ask me to off so that she can harvest her crops on farmville/farmtown. Addicted, I say. Toodles. Art can go fuck offfffffffffffffff. And I wanna watch 2012 and Paranormal Activity so badly.

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Ada, he's Dylan in the Akeelah and The Bee. Wahhhhhhhh, grown up already. So cute please. I know his name! HAHA.

fuck

Okay fuck, I promised myself that I'd start drawing by 8pm but it is already 9.30 now. Don't know what's wrong with me. Ha ha ha, I'm seriously hopeless for sure. My brain cells are about to burst anytime soon stressing about art and some other stuffs. Everything's just so stressful. I think I can't take anymore stress. HAHAHA ok shit. Staying back after school wtih Ada tomorrow to dedicate my time for art. (ok no) Am gonna have to try to complete at least 7 drawings. The fucking deadline is on Wednesday -.- Pathetic. Okay so, 4 more days of school and finally say hello to holidays. Can't wait. I hate waking up early.

I feel like going to the beach, hahahahah wow how random.

Okay going offline now. ARTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

sorry

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA AWW >.<

art again

Hahaha sorry my hair like shitz. Yesterday went shopping with Mum. Went out late so kinda wasted my chance of buying more stuffs from Ion. Today's plan was to teach Raf in Maths and start on my observational drawings. But.. guess what? We failed! Expected that actually. Both of us got distracted with some other stuffs and we were not in the mood by the time we switched our area to marina square's mcdonalds. The library @ esplanade is just way too quiet! I swear. I couldn't even hear anyone's laughter or voice. So not cool. That was why we changed places. Ha-ha and one part my phone suddenly rang, I got hell shocked! Stupid. So after that, did alot of window shopping. Should've been there yesterday! Hahaha so pretty much everything I see was tempting.

Tried to get a present for Wani as her birthday's tomorrow but couldn't find anything suitable at all. Sad story. HAHA. Most probably meeting her up for awhile tomorrow :) Happy advanced birthday girlllll ♥

Time now is almost 11 and I'm not going to sleep just yet. I think I'm gonna try to start on my observational drawings. Everyday, the only one thing that I have to remember about is ART. FUCK RIGHT AHAHAH.

you should read

“Welcome to a world where people talk about about each other, everyone lies, everyone tries to be something they’re not, nobody can keep a secret, and friendships that lasted years are broke. Yeah, well that’s what you call life. People leave- Life doesn’t stop for anyone. Throughout everything you have to remember that everything happens for a reason. There’s a reason certain people aren’t in your future. And of course, good things fall apart so better things fall together. You can’t be sad. You can’t waste anymore time. Be happy. Enjoy the times you’ve had; Cherish the memories. Remind yourself everyday how great everything is because one day it might not be there. Never take anything for granted. Someday everything will all make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason. It’s the art of not letting it get to your head, not letting it break your heart, and not letting the world see when it does. We both know there are certain things in life that are better left unknown. Things you wish you never asked, never heard, and something never felt. But what kind of way is that to live life? Live life on the edge of the ledge; to the extreme. Oh, and love the people who treat you right and forget about the people who don’t. Be with the people who make you happy. Never try to be someone you aren’t; One day someone will love you for everything you are, everything you’ve been, and everything you want to be. And when you find that person- never let them go. Stay true to yourself; very few people will stay true to you. Live your life the way you want too. Don’t like something about it? Then change it. You’re in control. And for a minute, forget about what’s coming tomorrow. Sometimes all you can do is not think. Not wonder. No obsess. Not imagine. Just breathe. Breathe in, breathe out. Everything works out in the end, and the more time you spend worrying about it, the longer it takes for things to end perfectly.. just the way they should.”

Life life life.

bummer

The day I got my extensions. HAHAHA :O

So, I was supposed to continue with my research on jewellery but it got dragged till now. Ha ha, I'm so fucked lah. I still have yet to shower and it's almost 3 in the afternoon. Okay, I guess I have to hurry up and just scribble down the notes and figure it out later. I'll have to go and shower soon and head to the shop to develop the photos I took yesterday. Then wait for Mum to get home from work. She's actually bringing me shopping! Wah, so happy. HAHAHA. I need to buy WHITE (inserts lingerie). So yeah. And hopefully more clothes :)

One more week of school left. Last week was really kind of boring. The usual 'fun' classmates didn't attend school, so every lesson was like shit. Zzzzz.

Ugh shit. I hate my bad habits = to shower late _|_

HELL YES!

School was boring. Like so darn boring. Like zzzzzzz. Physics was the worst. I hate lessons with alot of talking and bla bla bla. Dry, so plain dry. And now the teacher has changed. Can't even talk a little. He will catch you that fast. Amazing eyes. Or ears, whatever. ART SUCKS! END.

clicknetwork

I hate Sundays. They're forever so boring. Rotted at home for the whole day. I only had my shower after 7pm. HAHAHA. Damn, old habit of mine. Had my ass glued to the chair infront of the computer for many many hours. Was on Youtube watching clicknetwork's videos. One of the ways to entertain me, HAHA! Currently watching Numbnuts. Sick one, but still funny.

School tomorrow. Interesting... NOT. Don't know if I can wake up on time again in the morning. Hopefully I'll not sleep like a dead log and hear my alarm ringing. I think I'm having a headache. School ends @ 12.30 but I have to stay back yet again till 5 for my graphic design course. For 4 days!!! Hahahaha hate being an art student. Oh yeah, happy november :D

Mum's coming home tomorrow night. She bought me a wallet and a bag, can't wait to see it. Oh wells, nothing much except that I wanna watch This Is It and Jennifer's Body.

Okay bye!!!

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HAHAHA OK OMG WATCH THIS! SICKKKKKK.